I have an appointment next Tuesday 10.00 at the Churchill hospital , could be a good omen , that's my dads birthday , he passed away 3 years ago ,bit mawkish I know , but hey ! I need all the help I can get. Feel so good physically , walked 3 miles this afternoon , ate a hearty dinner , don't feel tired at all , been awake since 6, busy morning, mentally in a good place thanks to all your lovely support , just can't believe the news can be anything but good . Imagine this will fade a bit in the wee small hours . I will be really devastated if my and my family's optimism is unfounded . Wish me luck !