Scared

[Jmarieee]

So after 10+ years in aspheric lenses ( glasses) for some reason my eyes now are not okay wearing them, after 4 months of appointments and several glasses... The news I didn't want has happened.

I'm never going to look normal, attractive or nice ever again and, my partner isn't sure he'll stay, we both didn't think my appearance was going to change so drastically so it's a huge shock and if there's no attraction there, it won't work.

It's so heartbreaking to know if only if stayed looking normal? He'd still be attracted to me and we'd of had a future with our 5 year old daughter, who has my eyesight 😩.

I feel like the worst Mum ever, I don't want her to have to go through this ever herself.

I'm feeling extreme sadness, anger, pain and possible loss of the person I love and my future. Nobody around me can relate, nobody knows what to say to me family included.

They just say you'll get through it.

I'm in therapy obviously but it's a lot happening very quickly and I'm in early stages so not even scratched the surface yet of 20 years of bdd and trauma, and I'm not finding it that helpful currently.

[worthytobeloved]

OMG, I'm so sorry. I obviously don't understand the full implications of what you're going through. Is it that you will have to wear pebble glasses? Please do explain - I'd love to understand.Regarding your partner, surely he loves YOU, whatever you look like. I think your worry is the BDD talking (I understand that).

You are more than your appearance (and your appearance is beautiful to everyone else). Just continue to be the amazing woman you are, and a loving partner and mother.

My thoughts are with you, and my deepest wish is that you find peace of mind. xxx

[Jmarieee in reply to worthytobeloved]

Thank you, but I don't want to really explain because I've been living it in my head for months now and I'm exhausted 😔.

Unfortunately love doesn't mean their going to find you attractive still, and if that goes it's just friends.

[worthytobeloved in reply to Jmarieee]

I understand. I'm sorry for all you have been and are going through. You will be very much in my thoughts. xxx