Hi all,
I had a BCC removed from the tip of my nose about 7 months ago. It was an infiltrative BCC so the whole lot was removed down to the cartilage leaving a deep hole that they filled with a skin graft from behind my ear.
Except that it didn't really fill it too well, and I have a sinkhole in the end of my nose as if my nose was made of putty and someone pressed their finger into the end. It is smack-bang in the middle of my face. It looks like it isn't going to fill out as was hoped.
So I have my bandage equipment and whenever I go out I cover it. I have been out without a plaster a couple of times - I clean forgot about putting it on - but I found the experience awful. My perception was that people would first be drawn to look at me with a sense of 'ouch , ooh-err, that really doesn't look very nice' , and then having seen it would studiously avoid looking at me any further.
I wanted the ground to open and swallow me up.
As time has gone by and it seems increasingly as if it is NOT going to improve any further, I feel myself sinking into a despondent low. I have always been an upbeat happy person but this thing is weighing me down now, and I feel like it is getting worse.
I wonder if I will ever be able to live without a plaster on my face. The longer I wear it the more I hate it, but caught between a rock and a hard place ( i choose the hard place). I wish I had the courage to go out without it, but as yet I don't.
Always try and count my blessings and I know there are so many people who have it worse than me. I just needed to offload my feelings somewhere I thought people would understand. Now I am done.
Thanks all
PD
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