Hi all, Yesterday I received the disclosure forms from the DVLA regarding reporting Insulin use etc and excessive tiredness etc.
As mentioned in my first post the topic of Cirrhosis came up, I was told that it is a reportable condition, now I may have misunderstood the advisor as to whether it was the actual *Cirrhosis* diagnosis or rather, the co-morbids that go along with it.
So yesterday I phoned the Specialist Liver Nurses and asked if I had ever been diagnosed with HE as I am on Lactulose. I explained exactly why I needed to know.
Nurse - "There is nothing in your discharge letter from the hospital in May 2020 saying you had had HE" (first and only admission for decompesated cirrhosis), although it does mention you were started on Lactulose during your stay.
My response - "so from this can I take it that I have never had HE then?"
Nurse - "no, as HE is one of the markers that goes with decompesated cirrhosis means you will have had it and that is why you are on Lactulose".
Me- But surely I should have been told I (may) have had it, and about the possibility of it recurring regardless of *comp or decomp* status?... So should I report to the DVLA something that I may never have had with the possibility of never driving again?"
Nurse -"only if they ask if you have had Decompesated Cirrhosis."
I have to respond to the DVLA within 14 days, given the letter was dated the 1st of June I may as well hand my driving licence in, I'm also waiting on an appointment with Neurology too, doc said long waiting times, the DVLA expects you to hand over your licence if you can't drive for 3 months or more!
It's so hard not to feel like cr@p at times, I know I should be bloody grateful just to still be on the go, BUT there's just too much to process at times.
I usually pretend that everything is fine, I try to be jovial, outwardly mocking myself, laughing at the endless health problems I have.
But, even once in a while, I give in to the feelings of guilt, hate, sadness, regret, anger and disbelief at the person I have become.
Sorry for moaning, I know I can say this here without being judged, thank you for being such good, caring people.
Take care of ALL of you x