I just need to vent. I’ve had enough of being left to deal with everything on my own. Finally saw a GI 6weeks ago after waiting 5 months to be told he wanted me to have a ct scan angry upset doesn’t cover it I’m livid he refused point blank to get me in to have gallbladder out due to my pain being in my upper right back and nowhere else he thinks there’s another issue so wants a ct to rule everything out i agreed reluctantly.
Phoned ct after waiting 2 weeks to receive an appointment to be told you had an appointment and it’s been canceled due to not having recent blood tests. I’ve had to chase and find out what bloods I needed I’ve then had to book into my gp surgery to get them done. This was phoning Friday and having bloods done on the Tuesday we are now 2weeks in still no ct appointment. Chased with a few phone calls someone needs to say that it’s fine and could take upto 8weeks. But I’ve been told I have b12 defiency which can be inter linked with gallstones.
I have gone from being a size 12 and weighing in at 10 half stone down so not massively over weight to a size 8 weighing in at 9 Stone. I’ve stopped being sick which is the only silverling that I’ve got. Intake in food is ok I have my main meal on the night due to eating in the afternoon and having to phone my partner to come and get the children from school because I physically can not look after myself let alone walking to and from school across busy roads.
Consultant isn’t bothered. Doctors won’t give me pain meds’ I’ve tryed a lot. Gp has said only way to get rid of the pain is having gallbladder out hmm well that would be useful but consultant is dragging his damn feet can you do anything write to him something no we can’t great stuff 👍. So I’ll sit and continue to wait.
I’m not sleeping because of pain I can bearly function nobody cares. No body cares that the pain suddenly hit me at my parents house one night and my dad has had to drive me home because I couldn’t drive then I had to have my partners parents sit with the kiddies so my partner could go get our car cos I couldn’t look after them youngest had just turned 1 older 2 are fine. Dad wanted me to go to a&e I refused. NHS is stretched enough without me going in taking a bed for someone who actually needs it.
Thing that is doing my head in if I had broken a bone a&e would have xrayed me casted me up I would have been sorted by fracture clink but because you can’t physically see anything I’m left to just deal with it.
It is getting me really down I don’t know if it’s just waiting in limbo or if I have actually got the start of anxiety/depression. I don’t go out on the night on my own just incase it starts and I can’t get back or if I’m driving and have an accident the fort makes me skin crawl.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Thanks x