Worrying myself stupid

[Tracy12]

Hi everyone

I have posted on here before and had some lovely comments

I had ultrasound a few weeks ago and found out I have multiple gallstones and a lesion on my liver which ended up with me being referred on a 2 week wait. I’ve had a call from a nurse who just asked about symptoms

I’ve now had a call advising me I have a ct with contrast on chest abdo and pelvis booked for Tuesday

I’m going out of my mind with worry

A couple of years ago I started to get a strange pain on and off the size of a 2p always in the same spot on right side of chest and slight shortness of breath. I could go days weeks without it and then it Would come back again. Anyway I just buried my head in the sand and left it as I’m scared stiff of doctors.

Now I’m convinced I have lung cancer and it has spread to my liver

I try and convince myself I’m just being silly. I have no cough but I do have this on off chest pain and back and shoulders.

Really finding it hard to cope.

[jazzjam]

I know it is not easy but do try not to panic. The way I look at it is, “if I have it right now, what is worrying going to do” lets just deal with it.

On a brighter note, I have multiple gall stones and legions on my liver. Which they notice every year, my results come back with little cysts and things, no cancerous cells and also of course my doctor says my bloods would start changing if I was fighting a cancer.

Try not to worry.

[Laura009]

Hi Tracy. I know easier said than done ... "Try not to worry, " you are bound to but it's really good news you haven't got long to wait for your scans so the worrying isn't going to be a long drawn out thing. Once you receive all the results, the picture will become clear and you will have a diagnosis which is a positive thing. Whatever the diagnosis there is absolutely no need to fear the doctors as wherever necessary, they are the ones who will be treating, looking after and caring for you throughout. Put all your faith in them, discuss with them any fears and concerns you have , so they can really help you to relax and put your mind at rest.

I wish you all the very best.

Laura xx

[Lucky87]

Hi Tracy. I have a weird ache in my right lung when I cough sometimes it started a few weeks ago. Doctor thinks it’s pulled muscle but idk what it is!

[Tracy12]

Thanks everyone for replying

I was sitting on my own last night when I sent the message and just come over in such a panic. Just needed to get my worries out there.

I know I’ve got to put on my big girl pants instead of wallowing In self pity but just easier said then done.

If anything this will put to bed the worry I’ve had for the last 2 years on what the chest pain thing is. There was no way I would have got help for it I just bury my head in the sand and hope it will go away. It was only the severe gallstone pain that meant I had no choice but to seek help.

Lucky 87 I don’t have any pain when I cough,deep breathe or movement it just randomly happens and can last for minutes to hours.

Thank you all for reaching out just feel so low

[Tracy12]

Thanks everyone for replying

I was sitting on my own last night when I sent the message and just come over in such a panic. Just needed to get my worries out there.

I know I’ve got to put on my big girl pants instead of wallowing In self pity but just easier said then done.

If anything this will put to bed the worry I’ve had for the last 2 years on what the chest pain thing is. There was no way I would have got help for it I just bury my head in the sand and hope it will go away. It was only the severe gallstone pain that meant I had no choice but to seek help.

Lucky 87 I don’t have any pain when I cough,deep breathe or movement it just randomly happens and can last for minutes to hours.

Thank you all for reaching out just feel so low

[Laura009]

Many people are feeling very low right now. Our whole world as we have known it has been turned upside down with no real idea when things will return to our old normal. With other health issues seemingly put on hold the feeling of utter dispair can engulf us. I'm sure it must feel that it would take too much energy and to much effort to pull our socks up and say today I'm going to make myself feel better about all this ? Can you get yourself motivated into going for even a short walk, blow away the cobwebs a bit? Or get absorbed in a good book to take your mind off your worries or even a wardrobe clear out ? Sometimes it just takes a new distraction to take the edge off things for a while.

L xx

[Tracy12]

I’m going to motivate myself today. I find when I’m at work I’m fine as always busy. Ironically I work in a doctors surgery! Unfortunately I booked next week as annual leave. First leave I’ve had since before lockdown but now wish I could have cancelled it. I must be ill if I actually want to go to work!!

[Laura009 in reply to Tracy12]

🤣 bless you !! Well done Tracy. Come back later and tell me what you did with your day. Put a happy smile on your face.. put some music on .... today is going to be a good day 💖💐 xx

[Tracy12]

Unfortunately the motivation went out the window. One of my worst days yesterday. Spent most of the day under the duvet sobbing. Sorry to sound all doom and gloom. I just have this sheer panic inside. I am one of these people that dwell on the negative. I’m going to be a nightmare on Tuesday. Let alone the waiting for the results.

Sorry to sound so pathetic

[Dililiver]

Hi Tracy I’m sorry you’re feeling so worried and down, it is scary waiting for results but hopefully it will be good news. And if you do have a diagnosis of something (minor or not so minor) at least then you will have a plan. In my experience, with myself and with loved ones, the moment of diagnosis is often the moment when things start to improve because you know what you’re facing and you have health professionals to treat guide and support you.

That said I’m a huge worrier and so I really feel for what you’re going through. Do you think the pain in your chest might be linked to anxiety? It doesn’t make it any less real. Your description matches how I felt for 6 months 6 years ago, and I ended up in hospital (where I work) thinking I had a heart attack - thanks for nothing Dr Google. It turned out - which deep down I kind of knew - that the pain was stress/anxiety etc brought in by the sudden and totally unexpected death of my beloved Dad. It was a very real pain but once I was checked over and talked about what had happened it went away.

I wish you all the best and please let us know how you get on

Niamh x

[Tracy12 in reply to Dililiver]

Hi Niamh

Thank you for your lovely reply.

I do in saner moments think anxiety is playing a big part in this. It’s funny how my chest seems to be more uncomfortable ever since the ultrasound results. The other 99% of the time I am absolutely convinced it’s sinister. Dr Google also plays a massive part in feeding my anxiety and I get so annoyed with myself for being drawn into it.

I will keep you updated

Tracy x

[Laurenluv]

Hey Tracy! How did everything go?

[Tracy12 in reply to Laurenluv]

Hi

Had the CT last night. Just the waiting now. My heart jumps every time my phone rings now.

Hope you are well

[Laurenluv]

I am doing okay. Waiting to get an ultrasound tomorrow for epigastric pain. Hoping your results come back all good!

[Tracy12 in reply to Laurenluv]

Thank you and to you

Tracy x