I think the end is now in sight. OH had to have emergency surgery, which as not gone well, and they want to operate again tomorrow if he is well enough. He is very poorly indeed and if he does make it will be months in hospital. They are not sure why (something to do with ascites) but it cut off the blood supply to the bowel. He now has a stoma and they are struggling to control his nutrition intake as food is moving through the system too fast and nutrients aren't being absorbed. I have never seen anyone look this ill.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you are a drinker please try and give up..... I wouldn't wish this on anyone, but especially not the man I have loved for 35 years. GET HELP BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE.
I don't know how much more he or I can take. I can only pray if he doesn't make it the end will be quick and without pain. This is a cruel disease, as is addiction, and though I am hoping for some kind of miracle, I know in my heart it is unlikely.