Hi. This is honestly more of a rant than anything. One of those days where you have a "can it get any worse" moments.
I've had preeclampsia twice before this pregnancy. Both times my symptoms of headaches and vision disturbances started early on before all main signs of preeclampsia started like high bp and protein etc. This time I'm 29 weeks pregnant and my headaches have started at the same time my BP has started fluctuating and there's protein in my urine. Luckily my blood results are ok so they've diagnosed mild PET. then find out the baby hasn't grown in 2 weeks so I'm already on lists for growth scans but they've brought it forward as the midwives have noticed my bump isn't growing.
I feel stupid I spent the first month of this pregnancy thinking have i got room in my life for another baby or will I love this baby as much as my other two cos this baby wasn't planned I didn't want anymor3 children after my preeclampsia experiences. If I'm honest when I found out I was pregnant I was petrified. For myself abortion has never been an option as I was a young mum with my first and there was no doubt in my mind I'd keep any of my children but this time round I just never imagined a.third child so really wasn't ready to accept it. Obviously I've bonded and I love this baby just as much as the two I have now. I feel her kick and can't imagine my life without her. We also found out she was a twin but the other baby didn't form properly my body absorbed it by my 12 week scan.
I think my hormones are playing games with me lately!!! So emotional!
The doctors don't like keeping me in the loop. Anyone mother reading this will probably understand when I say if I'm having a scan I want to know every outcome and what would happen in that situation. I need to be prepared for what they could say. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this so early on? Did they monitor the growth after the growth scan or do they deliver it they aren't growing... what happens? I feel so lost as I'm normally a mum.on here who replies to others and share my experiences of preeclampsia and bleeding and genuine crappy pregnancies to help others.. I feel so weird being in the position of asking for others input in my story.
I'd appreciate anyone who can shine on am light on what the outcomes of this could be with the scan and her not growing. My other two were perfect weights.
My first born 38weeks induced 8lb 6oz
My second born 37weeks induced 7lb 8oz