I haven't been online the last week because we've been very busy. When our dear friend Wendy lost Dave, it made me realize just how fast it can happen. Also that when Jimmy is gone, I can never get time wasted back. So we've decided to make sure we really do make the most of what time is left. I'm so tired of feeling torn between my job and Jimmy. Tired of leaving him alone while I do "work" that's not nearly as important as being with my husband. We've worked for our church for two years helping run a homeless shelter/ rehabilitation center. Part of our pay was an apartment on the premises. I've enjoyed helping the people that have come through here as well as working with the animals, gardening, canning food we've grown, sharing my knowledge with others, being able to work alongside Jimmy. Then when Jimmy got ill, I was pressured to "think about putting him in a nursing and to make it easier on me" . Translation is out him away so taking care of him doesn't interfere with what we want you to do for us. I also worried because there was many times I felt Jimmy was doing more than he needed to be doing because he'd been quilted into it. Blinders have fallen away from my eyes and I've seen just how selfish and un-Christian the leaders of our church actually are. The Pastor's wife actually tried using Jimmy's caregiver as a maid, asking the caregiver to basically do things that she didn't want to have to do herself. Such as dusting the collection of birdhouses on shelves all around the foyer???
So we decided to ask Social Security to release the rest of his SSI back pay early (which they did), purchase a 5th wheel and leave my job here, our apartment and this church.
We were going to park it at an RV lot but Jimmy's sister and brother in law have helped get part of their property ready so we can park it there. It's down the road from where they live on property that used to have their old milk barn on it. This way we can afford to live on Jimmy's Social Security without me having to work right now. So I'll be able to take care of him and we can enjoy the time we have left. So we've been busy this week packing up and getting electric, water, and septic ready over there as well as just clearing an area to park the trailer. Looking forward to less stress in our life. ❤❤❤