I hope I’m writing in the right forum.
I have suspected IBS and have for eight years now but over the past year I have developed overactive bladder - I’ve been told and did research that suggests this could both be connected.
I thought IBS had ruined my life by boy was it wrong. OB has literally destroyed me. I now suffer with servere panic attacks daily because of this, I cry when I leak because I’m so embarrassed. I stay at home so I don’t have to worry. I don’t leak every day but it comes on randomly so I never have any warning signs so as you can imagine my anxiety is high all the time. I struggle to go to sleep as I’m scared about leaking. I’m only 25 and it’s ruined me. I’m extremely suicidal because of this - I’ve contemplated killing myself many times. I’d rather not be on this earth. I know that might sound dramatic to some but I can’t take it.
My new doctor has said I can have Botox but I’m desperate to have it done NOW, I don’t want to have to wait any longer and it just seems like they’re taking their time.
Sorry I just needed to vent and connect with people who also have this as I feel very alone.