Hey Everyone
The sun is shining, I'm sitting in the garden having a naughty McDonald's for lunch as Mum is out and I'm re starting the diet tonight.
However I'm still not feeling great. Just fed up with everything, I am trying to remember how much I hate this time of year at work, but I just want to be at work and go out my friends without worrying about my heart.
V x
Dear You,
Im afraid that your mind is trying to place things back into perspective and its a task that it gets wrong, it can't help it as this is a new situation for it to cope with.
Getting well has two main parts to it, the physical and the mental.
Try not to be to hard on yourself as it takes time to re-balance them, help is on the way as you have set the ball rolling { massive part } so its just a time thing now as we all wait in a cue for our turn.
It will come, it will happen.
Kevin X
What a lovely post 👏👏👏👏👏🙏
Well said Kevin. xxxx
Hello 
Not so much about starting the diet but about getting back on track now with healthy eating so maybe this been the last treat 
I have been agoraphobic stuck indoors for over 20 years I often think what life used to be like what I am missing and really sad I wake up like it every single day and I cannot ever see this agoraphobia getting any better they have tried and said often they would be worried I would have a break down so stepped back as I have been like it so long
But when you get these thoughts keep telling yourself it is just for now and not ever just while you are getting well you have had some lovely trips out and they will get more and life will be back to how you know it and when those Kids are driving you mad you might just be sat wishing you were back relaxing in the garden
I know it is not always easy but try and focus on all the positive things and how far you have come in such a short time and that is only going to keep getting better x
Aww v sorry your feeling like rubbish you have been through sooo much and it will take a while to get through it but your doing so well sending you a hug 🤗❤️. I had a cheeky burger king yesterday for lunch so dont worry about it 😋🍔👑😅😉. Take care and have a lovely day in the garden. X
It was lovely as a one off
Oh valentine iam the same, I want to stop worrying about my heart. I hope you enjoyed the McDonald's. It has to be done.
Hi V, so glad you had a treat. You have been through so much and your mind is still processing the whole thing and it will take time. You must give yourself time to heal both physically and psychologically. One day at a time xx
I didn't have any fries just burger and mozzarella sticks and a drink 😋
Love the mozzarella sticks 😍.
I hope the sunshine this afternoon/evening is cheering you up a bit!
It's not helped
The mozzarella sticks are my favourite I will not confirm or deny that I had a share box to myself, they helped a little bit
V x
Sometimes indulging in the foods we love can help, although temporary, it’s nice while it lasts x
I'm sure they're really healthy V!!!😂 xxxxxx
You'll get there Valentina, even though at the moment you feel as if it's never going to change. It will - it just takes time and more time, you're doing everything right and it just takes time to heal (mentally and physically). Just keep looking after yourself (and allow Mum to help 🙂!) and you'll wake up one morning ready to face the world with a smile. I've only ever had about two McD's in my life (all 63 years of it!), but I do LOVE a Burgerking! Carol xox
Don't be so hard on yourself. Anti depressants take a while to kick in - it may take 4 - 8 weeks! Also, think of recovery as walking up a hill - it goes up, then down a bit, then up again etc until you reach the top. You will get there, and remember we are hear for you to moan at
I've been on anti depressants for years.
I did not know that.
I know it's very hard to give up junk food it just tastes so good, I've tried to give up crisps but gave in yesterday and ate a pack as long as its very occasionally hopefully get away with it. Anyway back to the lettuce, I try to keep to tiny portion of potatoes and only 1 biscuit a day and no more than 2 slices if bread have lost a few pound but another 4 stone to go
😂😂!! xxxxx
Hope you enjoyed your maccies , we all need a treat now and again . You’ve been through lots recently , it takes time to recover emotionally , mentally and physically . Drs prescribe medications where necessary to help the physical side but personally I don’t feel they tell patients that they might struggle to come to terms with cardiac events , it took me many months to start to recover and it’s been over two years since I had post procedure complications that resulted in a very traumatic hospital admittance . I still have days where something reminds me of the bad times I went through . It’s not easy to forget what happened or bounce back from our experiences . In time you’ll go out without feeling as worried, I know how you feel but it will get easier .Take little steps at first and you’ll get there .
Perfectly normal. Honestly it's early days yet. The rehab will do a massive amount to help that but try to get counselling as well. You're far too young to be dealing with this without help. I had to give up teaching because of spinal problems . It took years for me to accept it. Teaching isn't a job , it's part of your character; a calling if you like and despite illness it's so hard to let it go; even if it's temporary.
Being ill is a b******. You just have to sit it out and hope tomorrow will be better. Sympathy probably won’t help but you have mine anyway xx
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