Just joined the community as I am totally lost and bewildered at the moment. I was admitted to hospital in August 2017 aged 61 to be told I had suffered Heart Failure. Shell shocked nowhere near covers the emotions or feelings of disbelief. I have been very lucky and am under a fantastic Heart Clinic. I have had the ECG's, Blood Tests, scans and MRI. Damage is to the lower left ventricle and my heart function was at 39% which is just below the red line of 40%. Been on medication for high blood pressure etc for last 8 years and thought it was all under control. I made all of the changes asked of me, cut out ALL alcohol, changed my diet and started to exercise more. Following a 24 hour ECG I have just had the devastating news that the condition has got worse and the heart function has dropped to 25%. I have now been referred to a Cardio surgeon and am awaiting an appointment but the talk is of surgery for some sort of heart pump or at worst open heart surgery to replace a heart valve. I don't know what or how to feel. I just feel lost and devoid of any feelings. Is this normal ? I just feel at a total loss.