Now sadness has a scalable weight!

[Senior4merEverything]

I lost the best half of my identity two weeks ago. She was special and she was bright, and she loved me.

I never got that part of it. Why this special woman would love me, as opposed to finding someone who is far better as a person and as a companion than I am? it just made no sense to me. I went to work trying to get her to leave me alone rather early in our relationship, but she would not have any of it.

Losing her has brought a sadness into my life that has a "weight" to it. I mean this, it's as if a heavy object is sitting on my chest, shoulders, and my back. I can hardly move, I just want to lie down and let the weight suffocate me, or break me enough that I don't survive.

This sadness has weight!

It feels like I could place it on a scale and read the numbers increase.

I'm in trouble, I'm unsure of what I need to do next.

[Dolphin14]

This is a very difficult loss. I recognize just what you are describing. The " heavy weight" It's unbearable at times.

It sounds like, despite your efforts to push away the relationship in the beginning, that things worked out

Take your time grieving. It's a very hard process to go through

🐬

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hello Senior4merEverything

Welcome to our Community.

I'm so sorry to read of the loss of your loved one.

It's so very hard to bear, and you must be feeling so raw right now, and because your loss is very recent, the shock is really affecting you.

Please remember we are here for you, so posting here will always receive a reply.

Chloe

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I recently lost the love of my life too. You need to find a grief counselor or grief support group to help you maneuver through the mire

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Somebody will always be on this site 24/7 and know the pain you’re feeling and that wanting it to take you with it. There’s no words to make it better right now but you’re not alone, let it out, let it out on here. We’re all here for you. Take care 🦊x