Emotions and feeling low..

[Dolphin100]

Brief history, cared and looked after my grandma for over 10 years. She was my 2nd mum and was my world. Shopping, errands, gp, hospital appts. Trips out and fun journeys. Sadly lost her to sepsis in 2022. 💔

The time flies and some days are a hell of a lot harder than others.

The last few days I've been struggling with the evenings, scrolling thru insta and seeing a poem, memories that pop up on fb, seeing or doing something without her.

I miss her terribly. I always rung her after work. We talked about everything.

I know she loved us and was very proud of how well we go thru the terrible time as a family. My 3 uncles were amazing and supported me throughout the whole process.

I saw her in the Chapel of rest but it was a mere shell of the person we knew and loved.

Most importantly I know I made her proud of me. These feelings of sadness and the wave of emotions that come over me. I never thought loosing someone could hurt as much as I do right now.

Sorry for the long post/ramble

#bereavement #grandparent #loss #sadness

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[kenster1 Volunteer]

Hi so sorry to hear about your granny she sounds like a great person who more than just that as you say a 2nd mum and dear friend and these are the things we remember to help get us through difficult times. it sounds like you are a close knit family and are supporting each other and that support is priceless. have you thought or could you create a memorial box or even meet with the family once a month or more if possible for a coffee/lunch and have a laugh going over all those great memories you shared. never had grandparents myself sadly just one of those things. glad you are here as well hopefully that helps. I lost my mum to sepsis it was the hardest thing ever all the suffering. god bless and take care.

[Dolphin100 in reply to kenster1]

Hi thank u for the reply, we often meet for coffee as we use to do with my grandma. We always talk about what she would say or do in situations.

I have lots of trinkets and bits of hers from the house. I have a memory book and will be doing a spread for her.

I also have all of the tickets and bits from when we went to concerts and such.

Thank you for your kind words and take care yourself love. Xx

[chloe40 Administrator]

Hi Dolphin100

I remember you saying how lovely she was, so I can imagine how her loss has affected you.

These memories that pop up; you could jot them all done in a journal devoted to her, that would be a beautiful way of remembering her in the future, you might decorate parts of the page with little things she liked, maybe draw flowers in the corners or something like that.

Let us know how your doing Dolphin100

Chloe<3

[Dolphin100 in reply to chloe40]

Aww hi Chloe, Yes I remember chatting a while ago.

Yes I think I will get 1 journal just for her so I can add trips and bits. Memories and such. I'm sure o can fill quite a lot to be fair. Any pages I can just fill with photos and bits.

I'm doing okay, it's just adjusting to life without her as we did so much together. As I have said before some days are harder than others.

Take care 🙂 xx ❤️ 😘 xx