Hi all I'm new to this and just needed some support.
I got married 6 months ago. I'm in my early 20s. The first person I've had sex with was my husband. In our culture we don't get married and move out straight away we wait until the wedding.
During that in between time I had sex with my husband I had no concept of him having a disease I mentioned it 1 before he had a check and all was clear.
I remember the sudden itchiness I remember the tears I used to cry just to piss. I could hardly walk I had to stay home from work. I used to spend all day in the bath. Until one night I couldn't bare the pain any longer. I went to A&E there I was diagnosed of syphilis.
I never knew what is was until I started googling.
I was so angry at my husband I was so content on getting a divorce I hated him his attitude his look everything about him was disgusting. I wanted a divorce. I was paying for his dirty mistakes. I could stand him touching me or being so close to me.
I demanded he go see the health clinic he explained my symptoms and the doctor demanded I see him urgently.
Upon my arrival the doctor had seen me and gave me some pain killers but nothing helped it just burns and burns.
I was wrongly diagnosed. I had serve case of herpes the worse the doctor has seen in her 7 years at the clinic. My vagina was swollen red and bleeding. I couldnt close my legs.
I've had 2 out breaks since then they don't get easier. They tell you it does but it's terrible. I hate my husband for it I'm still with him and I rarely jump on him like before. I think I need counselling otherwise our marriage will break.
I miss being care free. I hope it does get better because I can't take any more. My marriage has paid the price yet again his actions causing me pain.
I lye here looking at him asleep while I can't sleep because I can feel it coming again.
Thanks for listen.
What shall I do being wrongly diagnosed?