I'm back again sensitive started the 2WW take 3 for a sibling for our beautiful daughter Francesca 🙃

[Jess1981]

Hi ladies

I'm sorry i left again, I struggled a bit after losing my daughter Amelia at 20 weeks pregnant and then having a chemical pregnancy straight afterwards which made me miss Amelia even more., 🥲

Anyways having baby no 2 seems to be proving to be very difficult with 2 losses. But anything worth having is worth fighting for 👊🏻 Prior to the chemical we did want another 2! 😂

I'm eating healthy as I'm sure that helps (!) taking a tonne of vitamins and supplements to boost my fertility and suppress my endometriosis. Taking low dose aspirin now as it's something I have to take when pregnant ( in 2ww I treat myself if I am pregnant!)

I saw my lh surge yesterday and we've been trying for a week so keeping my fingers crossed for a positive with a happy ending 👌🏻

I'm determined not to be beaten and we will keep until we have completed our family or at least given it our best shot.

It's a much less stressful trying as it's not as desperate as we felt to have Francesca. We want another baby but it's not as desperate.

I got rid of my counsellor- it didn't help it brought how I much Amelia sent me on a bad down world spiral. I will always miss her but gradually I am learning to live with the loss a little better.

Instead I've started running again before Amelia I was running 5k I'm on week 2 c to 5k program it's been a great release of anxiety and has made me feel better.

Have my beautiful daughter Francesca who keeps me busy (!) and is the best distraction whatever happens I tried my best this cycle and that has to be good enough 🙃

Hope everyone is okay ? Xx

[Winter_Girl]

Ahhhh jess. Nice to see an update - I missed the chance to respond to your last one as you went offline, understandably so. I'm sorry to hear about your chemical so soon after Amelia, but wishing you so much luck going forwards. I hope you get your rainbow xx 🌈

[Jess1981 in reply to Winter_Girl]

Aww thank you. We both hope we will get our baby a true rainbow whether it's this cycle or another one. Next baby is a take home baby I hope 👶 Hope your pregnancy is going wel? Xx

[Winter_Girl in reply to Jess1981]

Well, I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. Fingers crossed for this cycle Xx All ok here, thanks for asking xx

[Jess1981 in reply to Winter_Girl]

Bless you that is so kind. Wishing you the best with the rest of your pregnancy ekk not long to go now how exciting 😍keep us updated Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Sending you a huge hug lovely. Pleased to see you again don't apologize you do you and it sounds like your doing all the right things for you my lovely. Wishing you all the best for tww 💗😘

[Jess1981 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you. I was massively disappointed it was a chemical but you have to move forward and keep going. Hopefully next one is a keeper! Hope your pregnancy is going well? Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Jess1981]

🤞🏼 next one is a keeper for sure, good luck lovey, all is well thank you hun 💗😘

[romaluna2015]

Keep going Jess you got this xx

[Jess1981 in reply to romaluna2015]

Thank you we get disappointments but we keep going and will not be beaten 👍🏻 Hope you and the girls are well? Hopefully the restrictions ease so we get back to some normality 😊 Xx

[romaluna2015 in reply to Jess1981]

We’re okay for now. Got a few things going on . But thank you for asking. Never give up hope Jess you’ll hopefully get there soon xxx

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Aww thats awful losing at 20w, Ive lost 3 at 12w and 2 chemicals its super hard and emotional. I'm currently pregnant again and feel so thankful and blessed as I'm nearly 41 and didn't think it would happen. Take your time look after yourself physically and mentally distraction really helped me I focused on losing weight and exercising also focused on decorating which I love doing. Hopefully you'll get your rainbow soon x