Sensitive warning ⚠️ - pregnant again hoping for third time lucky. ☝🏻☝🏻☝🏻

[Jess1981]

Hi ladies.

Baby no 2 is definitely proving difficult we lost our darling daughter Amelia at 20 weeks pregnant in November, had a chemical pregnancy last month and have got positive tests this morning.

I'm hoping for a sticky baby I'm only 12 days post ovulation and it's such early days it could wrong s 😬 I said I'd hold out but the waiting and not knowing is hideous!To say I anm nervous is an complete understatement...

But am very grateful for Francesca after a long struggle she is the biggest and best blessing I'm still shocked we had her! 😂

Hope everyone else is ok Xx

[Cinderella5]

Awww Jess!! Everything crossed for you hun.🤞🏻🤗xxx

[Jess1981 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you after 2 chemicals know the danger of early testing very well 🙈 but hoping for the best. I'm glad to hear your pregnancy is progressing well. Ekk not long now, tho it probably is dragging for you. I felt like with Francesca wanted her safely here but now she's here time has gone sooooo quickly they are not babies long! Grow up far too quickly Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to Jess1981]

We've got to have hope lovely!! Yes, I would just like them here but time is starting to shift now.....not too long now!🤞🏻xx

[Jess1981 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you. I think hope is the only thing that kept us all going and without hope what's the point of any of it . Look forward to your birth announcement you've had such a tough journey you really deserve this 😍Xx

[Winter_Girl]

I really hope this is it for you after your losses. Sending love xx

[Jess1981 in reply to Winter_Girl]

Thank you, I hope this is our rainbow baby 👶 hope the pregnancy is going well. Xx

[Lovemylion]

Yay. I'm glad you've had positive tests this morning. Hopefully this is a sticky one. Xxx

[Jess1981 in reply to Lovemylion]

Thank you so much. Good luck with your next cycle hope it gets you a BFP Xx

[Lovemylion in reply to Jess1981]

Thanks hunny 💓

[MissSaoPaulo]

That's great Jess, hope this is the rainbow after the storm xxx

[Jess1981 in reply to MissSaoPaulo]

Aww think you hope it's third time lucky ☝🏻 Hoping that I'm due in November is a good sign as we lost Amelia in November ☝🏻I know that I posted on your post but wishing you good luck with your 2WW hope little Millie can keep you nice and busy! I hate the limbo land it's soooo hard 😬 wishing you a BFP Xx

[ttcemmie]

Congratulations, Jess. Thinking of you and your rainbow baby. x

[Jess1981 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thank you I hope that I'm due in November is a good sign as we lost Amelia in November ☝🏻🌈 hope your pregnancy is going well and smoothly can't be long now ekk exciting times ahead for you 😍 Xx

[ttcemmie in reply to Jess1981]

Thanks. It still doesn't feel real sometimes that we've got to this place. There were times when I thought this would never happen.... that it just wasn't meant for us. Still 8 weeks to go, but getting there. Hoping it's all good signs for you. I'm thinking positive thoughts. xxx

[Jess1981 in reply to ttcemmie]

I felt like that with Francesca kept it was too good to be true after such a struggle. When I did her nursery full term I was scared we'd have no baby. It's because it's been such a tough journey, but in 8 weeks your baby will be safely this is your time Xx

[Kyell2]

Lovely news Jess xx

[Jess1981 in reply to Kyell2]

Thank you so much. Hope you are okay? XX

[Bluelady-sing]

Who is that little girl in your pic?

[Jess1981 in reply to Bluelady-sing]

Yes that is my little girl Xx 😘

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Don't know how I'm missing these updates from Baby and Us.

🤞🏼 for you my dear really really hope this is your 🌈You really do deserve it. Lots of love 💗😘

[Jess1981 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you. I'd like to think the fact in due in November is a good sign as we lost Amelia in November but thankfully not due the date we lost her I couldn't handle that ☝🏻We are testing again on Saturday with a clear blue originally we planned to hold out till then 🤣 the other tests I've used have shown straight away even without first urine looks promising so far ☝🏻Hope all is going with your pregnancy Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Jess1981]

Positive vibes all the way hun. It has to be a good sign 🤞🏼 sounds like the hcg is strong too which is always a good sign.

Good luck for Saturdays test.

😘💗

[Jess1981 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you. I tested last night I got a dye stealer! I had pink spotting on Friday night before we tested and Wednesday which I think is implantation because of the timing . Never had implantation bleeding before but every pregnancy is different!This morning after such a strong test last night did a clear blue test and it's gone to 2-3. Weeks 😍 so far it is looking viable definitely not a chemical 😅 😍 I think when you had a struggle to conceive/or and pregnancy losses it is nice to get that reassurance. Xx after last month was nervous of using clear blue! Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Jess1981]

Ohhhhh wow that's great news hun. All sounding positive. Dye stealers are huge reassurance too!!!! The weeks indicator always helps some don't get on with them and they cause immense stress, but for me whenever I've got a 3+ iv had a viable pregnancy and whenever I've not it's not been viable. All sounds really positive lovely. 😊 very pleased to hear things are going the right way 💗😘

[Jess1981 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Still got many hurdles to get passed probably feel better once I reach 24 weeks will then feel it is really viable ( that's only coz I lost Amelia) if a baby comes after 24 weeks they have a chance of surviving. Before Amelia 12 weeks was always the point I thought it would be safe most probably are. Just enjoy each day each hurdle is a step closer 😍🙌🏻 We have a spare clear blue but from previous testing it can take some time to get to 3 weeks plus it's huge HCG level to get to so will wait till about 6 weeks or so. With Amelia I spent a fortune on them should've had shares in them 🤣 I eventually got 3 weeks at 5.5 weeks! I can see how they could cause stress using them. That is very reassuring to hear you've had successful pregnancies after seeing 3 weeks thank you it does give me hope it's difficult being pregnant after losses but I know you of all people know that one well sadly . Not long till your next one turns up 😍 exciting Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Jess1981]

Completely understand once you've experienced a loss you always feel better once you get passed that point. It will be filled with anxiety all the way up till that point and a huge sigh of relief once you've passed it!! Iv got every faith Amelia is right there with you through all of this and helping you keep positive aswel as your adorable Francesca. Losses do taint future pregnancies at the same time make us stronger and it does help to be able to share experience and help others too. 💗😘

I'm very nervous hoping things don't turn out how they did last time, but they've changed hospitals for the birth and will be having a bowel surgeon there so hopefully that will help with potential complications. Xx

[Jess1981 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Exactly that they do rob enjoyment from a pregnancy. I've no doubt Amelia is watching over us - I've seen her one time Christmas Eve in the cot bed I thought Francesca was sat up wanting me- but she was the ok the other end happy ( when she gets up in the night she's not happy!) I also saw her on my bed thought it was Francesca told her to go sleep but Francesca was sleeping! I saw her in my dream and no one else could see her but we were playing then I had to let go and I really didn't want to. Heard a girl saying hello and I just knew it was her! I've always been very spiritual person. Hubby is less but she visited him and spoke to him at work ( no one else was in the room) I know she's trying to make this easier. I believe she helped me after I birthed her as the placenta was retained but only when I was in theatre they found membranes and did a D & C which I'm certain would've made me very ill and or infertile.

I do hope they have learned from last one and this time goes much more smoothly. I had a horrific birth experience with Francesca tore badly then wasn't given sufficient pain relief ( midwife was awful 😤 most are good but she was awful..) i definitely had PTSD following Francescas birth- I waited so long to have her but every time I thought of her birth I burst into tears. It wrecked the first weeks I had with her.😩 So I know what impact a bad birth experience can do to you mentally. Not one midwife asked how I was after such a t traumatic birth it took Francescas heartbeat dropping for the midwife to get assistance.. 😳 Francesca had her hand around her head - all I was told was I wasn't pushing properly by that midwife 😬 the goal is to get baby out safely but mums mental well-being has to matter too Xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Jess1981]

Awwwwwww bless you Jess. I got all emotional reading that. I'm religious and very spiritual too, you seeing Amelia like that is just another reassurance that she's OK and yes she protected you!! Bless her. You'll all be together happy in the next life i thoroughly believe that.💗Sending you hugs my dear!

Its extremely hard going through a traumatic birth and the fact we don't get the support we need mentally and physically. It took my renal Dr to write to my Gp to say hello wake up this lady needs help fast. I'm really sorry you was failed by the system to by ladies that see this all the time they should know and understand

PTSD is horrible mine is certainly creeping back even through all my positive thinking. I just can't help but think at random times this time i wont be so lucky and may die, i very nearly did last time. I just have to keep the faith and only think that the fact the drs have changed my birth hospital to the one where the big surgeries are done is a good thing.

Huge hugs to you my love. Keep us updated on how you get on 💗😘

[Scarlett13]

Yay!!!! Lovely news xxxx You so deserve this. It’s your time. So sorry for your losses. Fingers crossed xxxx

[Jess1981 in reply to Scarlett13]

Thank you so much. I hope Fabian had a good birthday 🥳 Francesca had a lockdown birthday last year but had a nice day still! Fell asleep eating cake !🤣

Good luck going forward with another cycle hope you are able to give Fabian a sibling ☝🏻😘Xx

[Fifikoko]

Congratulations Jess!

So happy to hear you are pregnant again. Sending you lots of love luck and baby dust! 💕✨🌈