I hate being my self I wish I pretended to be someone else

[AlexZaharia02]

Sometimes i want to pretend to be a different person because i want to be accepted by the people because i hate my real self because i have obscure interest like in into pop culture like im into Marvel Comic Books And Films, Retto & Modern Video Games And Into Comic Art

But People they seem to think that is childish and i get judged so much that it upsets me it makes me feel like who i am like i wanted to make friends but people they didnt want me because of based on my interests and they seem that is too childish to be honest I hate who I am

[Cat33]

They aren't childish at all loads of people are interested in those things sounds really great Alex I hope that you can find sensible nice kind people who would welcome you to be your friends x

[AlexZaharia02 in reply to Cat33]

Idk if its possible now days

[Cat33 in reply to AlexZaharia02]

Look at Alana 13's great reply Don't you give up

I bet if you wrote that list you would be good at so many things

[AlexZaharia02 in reply to Cat33]

Lol. How it could that be

[Alana13]

Hi Alex

I do not think that your interests are obscure or childish at all. Have you looked to find people/ groups that have the same interests or similar? If people do not accept you for who you are, in my book they will not be real friends anyway, even if you would be interested in other things. Real friends like you for who who are. I do not think it is a good idea to try and change for others. The masking you‘ll be doing will only make it worse for you. Maybe it will help if you write a list of all the things you are good at and things you do well?

[AlexZaharia02 in reply to Alana13]

What if it doesn't work out I've tried so many times and I gave up I want to change my self because I'm tired of being me I'd rather be someone else more than my self

[Alana13]

But then again what if it does work?

The only time we fail is when we stop trying, somebody said. I know it is not easy when things haven’t worked out so far. Try and be patient and stay positive.

[AlexZaharia02 in reply to Alana13]

"Stay positive" yeah right easy for you to say I'd rather be alone and always alone

[Mybestfriends]

So many people love Marvel, Comicon is a Huge success, many people go there, as themselves or as a Character. Comics, do you like Drawing, there are many sites with your Fabulous interests, type in on Facebook & watch the discussions, maybe you will feel like adding a comment, like a Drawing, or even show your own. Search your fun interests, see how it goes, Chat to others, pic out info that you feel you want. Your not alone, there are many including my own Son, who feel just like you, keep pushing yourself/try try & try again, keep a Diary of Good, positive things & look back into those pages, if & when you feel down. Autistic people have a lot to offer, add to the world, friends will come & go, New for old, your growing everyday, the more we seek out, the more we find. Change is happening, the World is getting the Education on Disabilities, whether visual or nonvisual, be your own Advocate & show, inform others of what Autism is like & how Nerodivergeant Minds work. Keep Hope, we all love Hope.

[AlexZaharia02 in reply to Mybestfriends]

I feel I can just give up on that tbh

[Mybestfriends in reply to AlexZaharia02]

It is hard I acknowledge, but please never give up Hope, really Anything can happen, & everyday can be a Better one, do what you enjoy. Nature is wonderful, maybe take pictures & draw those you like or feel you want to.

[AlexZaharia02 in reply to Mybestfriends]

Easy for you to say you don't know what am I going through or how I struggle with autism

[Mybestfriends in reply to AlexZaharia02]

Of course, I don't know your personal struggles, sorry but I do empathise & have my Son adult with ASD & more, who I always listen to, & Support & daily, nightly with, go where he wants, he hasn't many friends, one that may see him on occasions, Loneliness is an Awful thing, when your surrounded by people. Best Wishes to you.