Today I've come out of the re-hab centre. I'm too exhausted to continue. My whole body seems to have gone into melt-down. I've the jitters in arms and legs, spasms all over, and however much a do my stretching excercises my musles go back to being rigid. My brain feels frazzled from the concentration.
Now the Dr at the centre has told me to rest for 3-4 weeks. No physio or excercises - only stretches.
The worst thing is she is not sure if I will feel any benefit afterwards this time. Last time after a recovery period a saw a vast improvement, but my illness has been accelerating so quickly. I really feel very frightened for the future. When I left the centre I can still picture the pity on the physio's face when I said goodbye, as she thinks that maybe it has all been for nothing. I feel exhausted and angry. The effort has been enormous and maybe to no avail.
I had memory tests too. I shall find out the results of those at my next meeting with Dr in one months time
I feel so frightened about the future