Normally I'm very positive. But at the moment I just feel like giving up, I'm fed up with everything being so difficult.
I should be feeling happy and excited as in a few days hubby and I are going on holiday to Italy. But, I'm doing what I always do when presented with a new situation - I'm kinda cracking up. I keep crying, having thoughts of sucide too.
I'm sure this is anxiety, as I'm fine in my normal world and routine, but as soon as a different situation presents itself I just don't seem to be able to cope!
What makes me feel worse is that I remember how holidays used to be, and then I think of all the things that I can no longer do. I used to feel excited and enthusiastic, now I feel more sad than anything.
I think, oh how will I cope with this, and how will I cope with that? Bloody ridiculous really. But I don't seem to be able to control myself feeling like this.
Does anyone else get like this.
Sorry to be so negative.
Love Alison xx