For about 6 weeks now I've been really down, crying most of the day, being low and just generally not doing anything other than sitting in the living room. My baby is 6 months old and I've got a son of 7. I never felt this way with my first born. Pretty much every day I feel like I'm not doing a good job, that I probably shouldn't of had my 2nd child as now I feel like I can't give him the love and attention he needs because of how I'm feeling. I've had intrusive thoughts where bad things happen to my baby. I've even thought they'd be better off without me.
I've tried speaking to my husband about it but I feel like it doesn't sink in. I have been on anti depressants before but this feels different. I don't know if I'm over thinking it or if I genuinely need some help. So I thought I'd ask for some opinions first. Thank you.