I had my 4th baby 8 months ago and its only been recently that I've become aware I have a problem due to family and friends mentioning. Looking back on my other pregnancies (2009/2011) I have encountered issues but with no diagnosis even though i was to and fro from Drs - was diagnosed with PND on my first (2006). My husband worked away and I wasn't aware and I had the GP, HV (if needed) and counsellor once a week....just thought it was normal not to sleep, eat, OCD and have crazy thoughts! Diagnosed in March this year with PND but keep relapsing when menstruating. I'm now having delusions, hallucinations, lost 2 stone due to not eating, will crave sweet carbs on a really good day, insomnia, manic moments as in cleaning house at midnight or skipping around shop, some days stuttered speech others continuously talking or being quiet, anxiety, tics and shakes, mood swings - elated, moody,emotional or normality (whatever that is as the black cloud still looms).....positive and negative days! I love Steve one minute and want to stab him the next, told him I wanted an affair (poor hubby), smashing house up, but scarily overdosed last week and couldn't care even though I know I do.....the worst of it I am aware but living as though in a dream world, totally detached from reality however cannot control it even though mentally I'm trying CBT, trying to remain calm and walk away from situation. I have been begging the Drs to help for well over 2 months - they increase medication from 50mg of sertraline to 100mg but within last few days have decreased it as they think i'm too sensitive apart from that nothing as I'm always smiling but I'm trying to remain positive for my children.....one health worker said she couldn't fathom me due to my positive nature - was it natural or a front. Any ideas im getting to the point and I'm slowly giving up.....
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