I've been here a week again without my baby because this time he is too old 13 months for a mother and baby unit. My bipolar symptoms are under control now it's just the psychosis that won't go away. The voices are very strong and demanding and hard to resist acting upon sometimes. They are trying out a last resort medication on me now to see if that makes anything better. I hope it does as my life is hell at the moment and I can't enjoy my son properly.