Hope you're all well!
I have some questions for those that decided not to have anymore children after their first due to PP.
I had PP with my first 3 years ago and always assumed I'd have 2 children. I got the courage up to try for a second last year but had two more miscarriages so have since gotten cold feet about trying again and realized that maybe I was only ever meant to have one child.
I know it's something that only I can answer, but how did you know you'd made the right decision about not having another child? Do you ever have doubts about it? Did you mourn the second child that you never had?
I feel 90% sure that it's the right decision, I felt instant relief and a weight lifted off my shoulders when my husband one day said that it was okay if I wanted to stop at one. And as horrible as it sounds, I felt some relief with the miscarriages. But part of me keeps swaying with the 'what ifs'.
I'm also turning 39 soon so time is not on my side and my son is currently being assessed for possible autism, so there's so many other risks associated with another pregnancy besides PP, but the PP is possibly what's weighing the heaviest.
I guess it's just hard to accept that things haven't gone as planned (do they ever?!) in my life. Plus, everyone keeps asking when I'm having another.
Thanks for reading x