I found it very difficult to bond with my baby at the beginning as the onset of PP started more or less straight away after giving birth. I didn't really realise that I had had a baby as I was so poorly and the baby went to live with my partner and his mum for a few days. I still feel very guilty about this. It worries me that if I have another baby and do not become poorly that I will develop a closer bond with my second child more than my first. Does anyone have any thoughts on this that have gone onto have other children and not experienced PP with subsequent pregnancies?