Has anyone any experience of completely changing their life after PPP?
I'm currently stuck in a horrible vicious cycle and would value any suggestions to move forwards. I feel I'm still being impacted by my PPP three years on and it's defining me as a person and what I am capable of doing. I feel really trapped and its having a detrimental impact on my relationship as well.
I had PPP this time in 2013 and had a relapse in February 2015 after chronic work stress for six months, being physically run-down and lack of sleep. I had been given the all-clear to come off my anti-psychotic but because of another work stress a few weeks ago that made me anxious again (the same awful project) this is on hold (although I've been reducing it myself monitored by my partner and am ok). The trouble I have is that I have awful sedation which means I can't start work until 11am and sometimes feel groggy all day. My consultant doesn't want to switch my meds. I'm trying tomorrow to get a prescription for the slow-release version which I'm aware is 16x as expensive which is why they don't lie to prescribe it.
I want to take a few months off so I can come off my medication which would essentially be off 'sick'. I've used up all my company sick leave from last year so I wouldn't be paid and I've had trouble claiming on my income protection as I've discovered they are not so keen to pay up for mental health issues. My partner is really worried about money and doesn't want me using my savings to fund myself being out of work. So, basically I can't work properly because of my side-effects to the Quetiapine anti-psychotic and I can't come off them because I'm currently working on the same stressful project. I also therefore can't get another job (or certainly one that would help enough towards our bills) easily either. I discussed with my partner selling our house and moving to a cheaper part of the country (we live in the expensive South of the UK) and he got really upset about that idea. Ideally I'd love my own business and have lots of ideas but my partner is worried about the stress that might cause and the insecurity of income.
I feel really trapped and am not sure what to do. Has anyone had a life/career change because of going through PPP or had to do a similar downshift in their living costs? It's making me really sad that we are still living the after effects several years on. I know I can't go on like this and I get different advice from family, health professionals who I've spoken to.
Sorry for the long post by the way.