Sadly I've had a second relapse psychotic episode last Monday following PPP in March 2013. It came on VERY quickly despite me taking all the advice of the Crisis team and psychiatrists and the meds dose they prescribed. It was the same combination of events - stress, physical weakness and lack of sleep 😟. It involved me chucking everything black in the house out into the garden all day long (microwave, tv, kettle etc). Apparently I caused quite a mess! I think I would have thrown out my piano if I could have moved it myself! I have posted previously about my issue with the colour black during psychosis and remember others had similar issues. Luckily I have recovered REALLY quickly on a high dose of Quitiapine and have already had one of my sections removed and am out on escorted leave after a week and hope to have some home leave by the weekend (fingers crossed).
Unfortunately I'm back in the awful hospital in the UK I had phobias about returning to (this is my 3rd time on this ward in a horrible dark north facing bedroom facing a brick wall) and not much has changed - still filthy and chaotic and noisy and basic Health & Safety is a joke - when I arrived the fire blanket was missing from the communal kitchen and there are constant spills on the floor that aren't cleaned up. As always there are no psychiatrists available at a weekend and when I asked for some paracetamol the nurses are not allowed to dispense. I have a catalogue of issues that I'm collecting while I'm here as it is a disgrace. Lights and TVs are left on all night in offices & rooms - if the NHS want to save money just come and take a look here for starters! There are not even any recycling bins! For those self-employed like myself there are no facilities to work and no wifi even. There is a quiet Sanctuary room but nobody available to take you so it's a waste of space. Nurses turn a blind eye to patients smoking in the toilets, someone escaped over the fence yesterday and I even found a set of staff keys in one of the bathrooms and could technically have just let myself out through the front door! (Sorry for the rant but it's just so badly designed here and the garden has been locked for everyone now because of the escapee so it's boiling hot inside with over heating.
It's been suggested that I switch back to an ongoing monthly injection of Aripriprazole as a 'maintenance dose' long term. I've not found any medication that doesn't cause side effects (quetiapine = severe morning sedation, olanzepine = weight gain, Aripriprazole = Anhedonia and feeling like a zombie with no emotions). I really don't want to be on meds again as I worked very hard to slowly taper off Quetiapine after a year and had been drug free for 5 months. Does anyone have any experience of using regular psychological therapy to avoid long-term meds use? I had CBT before for the depression after PPP and work stress which was useful. I have done a Mindfulness Course but unfortunately had relapsed back into my old ways for a multitude of reasons. In some ways I have 'cured' my 'phobia' about this NHS hospital ward being back in here so it's not all bad and has fired up my drive to improve general mental health facilities in the UK.
I've posted a photo of the single cup available (apart from disposable plastic water cups) for hot drinks for 26 people on the mixed ward. Disgusting and makes me quite angry! A disgrace to our country.
Any advice on surviving a noisy general adult psyc ward until I can go home gratefully received!