My son is going to be three in a few weeks and I had pp when he was three months. Then a second psychotic episode this march.
What I'm wondering is - did anyone else , like me, struggle to enjoy parenting? I would say we have quite a good bond and he has developed beautifully. He's a wonderful little boy - but i still find myself reluctant to want to play with him for any long period or when we are together, quite often I just wish I could be doing something else.
I think I feel like I lost my identity twice Over - once through motherhood and once through the psychosis.
My husband is the main carer to our little boy. I watch him play with little one and I just don't have the same energy and enthusiasm as him, I'm always comparing myself.
I would love to hear that it will get better over time
I wanted to enjoy motherhood and it hasn't been what I expected.
Thanks for any support you can give