Hi Everyone, I am new here.
I am having a problem with anxiety and driving, and it feels ridiculous. I used to only fear driving into the city or long distances, but lately, I have been scared to even get on the highway. I live in the country so there is nothing but a gas station and dollar generally nearby.
Everyone keeps pushing me to take medicine. I have tried medication and I have had horrible side effects--like depression, feeling crazy, crying, mood swings and extreme weight gain. I take a low dose of Wellbutrin, and I feel happy and motivated. I work out almost daily, but my anxiety is just terrible.
I've really tried to look at why I am scared to drive and it is because I am scared of falling asleep, passing out, getting sick or generally having a panic attack while on the road. The last two times I drove into town, I had a pretty bad panic attack and sat in my car shaking. I had to take the 20 minute detour to get home, (highway takes 7 minutes) because I was too paranoid to get on the highway.
I hate it, and it feels stupid. My husband knows this and I broke down and told my best friend the other week. I just feel guilty and like a crappy wife and mom, because I can't even go into town or go get fast food.
Some days I try to force myself to go for a drive in the morning when there isn't a lot of traffic, but I am busy with my daughter and work a lot (I work from home). By the time I actually have time to get out, its 5 and there is a lot of traffic.
Does anyone have any advice? My anxiety goes beyond driving, but this is my major issue.