Socializing

I don’t even know where to start. I used to be more social and just do things without worrying so much. But now I worry so much I can’t even socialize normally. In everyday conversation I feel awkward, like I don’t belong in the conversation even if I do and it’s perfectly normal to join in and say something. I literally can’t, I tried pushing myself and it’s overwhelming and I don’t know the words to say. When I do talk it comes out weird and I feel like I said the wrong thing or spoke out of turn. I actually need advice on how to talk which sounds ridiculous, but I don’t know what to do.

[designguy]

It sounds like you have become aware that you have social anxiety disorder which is maladaptive thinking and behavior. I suggest you do some research about it, educate yourself about it and seek out a therapist who specifically treats it to work with. There is plenty of information online about it and even online treatment courses available. You will be so glad you made the commitment and spent the time when you recover.