Ok, so after yesterday’s trauma of being misdiagnosed by some total loony tune (check out my earlier posts), I spent the day freaking out and getting reassurance. Typical hypochondria. I got advice from two friends who specialize in bpd, on top of my psychotherapist saying I don’t have it. I have therapy again at 8:45.
I googled the “doctor” to find he’s a physician’s assistant and not a doctor. He had 1 star reviews and somebody wrote something incredibly similar to my experience and said he feared the guy would misdiagnose others.
I got DP/DR again today and still feel a bit fuzzy. It HAS to be Zoloft still. It’s too extreme and feels super not like me.
I had my neurologist follow up and she was incredible. She said I don’t have epilepsy, and reviewed my tests and said that my episodes don’t show epilepsy characteristics, but sound like straight up anxiety. She walked me through how Zoloft can take 6-8 weeks to clear out and showed me my EEG and MRI results. I don’t fear it anymore. I also showed her the post I made about that dude who had TLE and she was able to tell his accounts were epileptic based on what he wrote about others’ noticing it. I had my weird dream recall in front of her and she said I am not exhibiting anything but anxiety. So I feel better. Putting it to bed.
I went to the gym alone, went to the store alone, went to my appointment alone.. I did so good!!! The DP/DR is so stupid and freaks me out but I’m trusting my doctor when she says to give it time.
increase in medication 
Lost job because of anxiety
Heart Failure
Palpitations
