Down to earth

[Refusetolose]

Some say it’s a spiritual awakening , others may say it’s my anxiety . I say it can be both . It’s certainly is a juxtaposition , because although I have been humbled greatly beacause of it , it also increases my anxiety to the point that I feel like I’m going to lose it . Religion and the thought of eternal damination , demons , and a “Holy” God that allows these things to happen , and religious freaks who justify why He allows it to happen , make my skin crawl and anxiety elevate . My background is Christian and if God is suppose to be a loving and holy entity why do I feel the opposite not unless I submit myself like a slave . And if I do submit myself I have to have total disregard for the lives that were gone before me who didn’t get a chance to get “saved” and loved ones who are not on “the right path”. So much I can write on this post but I think you get where I’m going at. I believe in a God for sure , I do believe that there is a dark force out here . But the God of religions make me question what side is He exactly on . I question reality and existence all the time . We are literally floating around on a tiny spec in and infinite universe , that has humbled me a lot . I feel as though humans are egotistical and naive and live in a bubble . There is so much more to life . But then religion creeps up on me and I worry about the after life . I just want to enjoy my time on earth in peace . Right now my spirit is in total chaos .

[Jeff1943]

Regusetolose, no point in blaming God for the crimes and distortions of mortals who use religion to advance their own personal agendas. It's not a holiday camp where everything is perfect He's running here, you know. Not forever by still waters. Nobody is going to judge you, you judge yourself. But you will be asked: "How do you reckon you did?" and also: "What's the most important thing you learnt?" So best to have your answers ready. What's the worse that can happen? Another dose of life in this world till you get it right. And no guarantee that you'll be born British or American.😭😭

Best to draw a line under it, concentrate on regaining your mental health, enjoy life and do the right thing best you can.

[Hidden]

Hi Refusetolose, forget about religion and concentrate on the relationship with God. We are suppose to think on good things, that is what the Lord God tells us to do. I had this same internal battle, and for the Christian you know where our salvation lies. We do our best and God will do the rest. Have a blessed day.

[Hidden]

Look into Christian Universalism, it will alleviate a lot of your fears. I struggled with this seriously for a year, and studied Christianity. I no longer question the goodness of God. Religion that teaches about eternal hell has been infected with pagan myths. Learn the truth. Do you use YouTube? Look at the channel The Total Victory of Christ. Lots of good videos on there

[Refusetolose]

Thank you all for the responses . I’m late because I have a lot going on and haven’t been on here . But thank you and blessings to all .