anxiety sucks.

[sonny7]

hey there. I am 20 and I have been struggling with anxiety for a few years now. It all started in high school when I first started going to parties. I felt like I hid my anxiousness and nervousness pretty well. I was always a little shy and awkward until I got to know you but I never thought to much about it. I didn’t even truly realize how anxious I was until now. I just recently moved to Charleston and I’m struggling to make new friends. My boyfriend however has plenty and always wants to go out with them. Although he invites me most of the time I just can’t seem to leave the house. I want to work on being more social. I just don’t know how. I feel so stuck. And when I get into social situations I just feel so awkward and I over think everything that comes out of my mouth and I feel like everyone is judging me. Idk why or when I got like that for sure. But it’s so hard. The only time I come out of my shell is when I’ve had a couple of drinks. But I do t want to rely on alcohol to have a good time or to be able to live my life like a normal person.