3 months ago I made the biggest mistake of my life. Because of anxiety I walked away from a beautiful and intelligent woman that I was engaged with for 4 months. (We dated for 16 months) The anxiety was not about her or anything she did wrong... it was about her environment. She has 3 children - 13 year old daughter, 15 year old son & 17 year old daughter and the oldest daughter has severe emotional issues (borderline personality disorder), she is Jewish and I am Catholic. She has a large and very close family of about 30 people (I have a very small family. Just my 12 year old daughter, my Mother and 2 older sisters), she has a lot of friends and she is a family educator at a synagogue. With the wedding coming in 5 months and at the same time my job doubling in work load... I cracked under all the fear, insecurities and anxiety and I just when to her house and grabbed all my belongings, the jewelry I gave her (including the engagement ring) and anything that reminded her of me. It was as if I was trying to erase myself from her and her children's existence. In fact, it was like I was in a "trance"... like I wasn't really there doing those things. It happen so fast that I didn't realize that I didn't even have a letter to leave her to explain what happen. Like a complete coward, I just sent her a text message before she got home that it was over. I love her with all my heart and soul and I love her children. And 24 hours after I left her I was horrified by what I had done. I have ever done anything like this before and that is not the type of person I am. My psychologist says that my mind was in "self-preservation mode" and wanted out of this situation at any cost regardless of my love for her and her children. I also have Attention Deficit Disorder and recently discovered I also have Executive Function issues. I've been begging her to give me a second chance, however, it really hurt her and her children and I don't know if I can fix the situation. Has anyone had a similar experience?