Recovery Questions??

[KrissNique]

Hello to all of you beautiful people.

It has been a while since I have last posted I have been trying to heal and recover from the monstrous illness. I have gotten better so if your one of those lovely people who are completely freaked out and think its going to be horrible forever. Please know that you will get better. Although I am not 100% as of yet I am not at the bottom anymore. The physical symptoms of anxiety left as quickly as they came but the panic and mental anguish not so much. I still struggle with mild panic and a very confused state of mind. I am smiling and laughing more these days but I still don't feel like myself.

When I say I don't feel like myself. I don't feel like my thoughts are actions are mine. Although logically I know that they are I just feel foreign to them. My memories feel strange. My reflection feels strange. I can look myself in the eye because it makes me feel super weird. Things are slowly improving but Im still not convinced. I don't feel connect to myself. Which I am aware is Depersonalization but I honestly feel I might have lost of piece of myself through all of this which is why I feel foreign to myself. Its quite a scary feeling and the impending doom sensations are hard to deal with also. My questions are do you ever really feel completely like yourself? Deprsonalization makes you feel so separate from yourself does it ever come back to what "living" feels like? Does anyone else struggle with feeling the weird stranger losing identity feeling that confuses you? How do you cope?

I appreciate all advice . If have met some really special ppl through the forum that has help clarify somethings. Im just learning how to not give up and lose hope.

[Whyus]

In my experience yes you do find yourself again. I suffer from anxiety that is triggered by something. But when I do get anxiety I don’t feel like myself and I stay in that mind set for about 2 weeks. It’s scary like you say very scary but hang in there stay positive and you’ll find that special sweet person in yourself again.

[KrissNique in reply to Whyus]

Thank you for that. Its scary I try to remember what feeling normal feels like or what feeling completely like myself feels like and I cant grasp it. Did you have Depersonalization ?

[Whyus in reply to KrissNique]

Yes I did, I kept telling my friends that I missed Maria which is my name because the person I was at the time wasn’t Maria. I’m taking Ashwagandha and its helped me. It’s like a natural antidepressant so if you take the real they don’t recommend mixing but like o said it’s helping me. I’m new to the forum but here for you if you ever want to chat. We can both overcome this 💪🏽