Hi, recently I don’t feel anxiety wise I’ve been too bad ..but my mood has hit an all time low .. to the point I didn’t even go away at the weekend with friends.. I’m struggling to find any joy in things and questioning,again what’s it all about!! Working full time and looking after family..
I know what’s contributing to these negative feelings.. my grandma is currently bedridden in a nursing home .. the sights and sounds I’ve seen have played havoc with my emotions ( even though I worked in care myself) nothing prepares you for your own loved ones .. my selfish problem is I’m on a self destruction mode about my own mortality...I cannot lift this dark blanket of why life can be so cruel.. I so so want to be happy again without these morbid thoughts! Thanks for reading, sorry !