In December I began a part-time job that involves a lot of customer service and due to anxiety in particular I just haven't enjoyed it at all and haven't been able to do my job properly. It's March now and I'd say I've had about 6 absences; one because I went to A&E in early hours of the morning and couldn't go to work the next day and others just because of how I was feeling. I have two fairly understanding bosses, and to quit my job, it would make me feel very guilty for leaving so soon, however, I feel it would be a huge relief off my shoulders because I just don't fit in at all.
The night before I'm due to go to work, I tend to have really bad nightmares, causing me to wake up terrified and from then on be shocked, anxious and depressed. After nightmares I've heard a voice once, too. It said: "The night reaper is here, the night reaper is going to get you" - I don't know if that was related to something emotional or if it was actually something psychotic.
I'm having a meeting with Human Resources on Thursday and i'm absolutely dreading it to the point that I feel sick to my stomach. I have no idea what they're going to say; does anyone have any idea what will happen in this meeting and what the possible outcomes are?