My ramble.

[Mommacb]

So I've been good for about 4 days. Then I started with the feeling like I couldn't breathe and palps last nite. Was able to get to sleep at 3am, then woke up feeling the same. Then started googling( which I haven't done in a while) and now I just feel worried. Im a worrier. I run in the bathroom all day long cause nobody can get in. And I just sit there with the water on. Everywhere I go im running in a bathroom. And my kids know somethings wrong. I Just keep saying I dont feel good. I feel lonely, but wanna be left alone. Haven't left the house in a week and blame it on the snow but thats not it . So much to get off my chest sometimes. No therepy yet just meds. Was outgoing and loved the sunshine. But this anxiety has got me rite now. I do know that this too shall pass. Just hope sooner than later. Thanks for reading. I do feel a little better.

[Mloanddb]

Sorry to hear that. I was a happy person also but once all this started I became a sad depressed scared person. Some days are good and the bad days are absolutely horrible. I'm not really sure how I get out of bed most days, don't have a choice the bills don't wait. I was up last night to feel asleep at like 2am I think I normally don't have sleeping problems 😔

[Mommacb in reply to Mloanddb]

Mloanddb I've not really had sleeping probs until I started having anxiety and thoughts of things past. Then I like my quiet time without kids up. But then I start worrying and lokking stuff up which contributes to my not falling asleep. What a cycle

[Hidden in reply to Mommacb]

Looking things up is one of the worst things you can do.. can you stop yourself from doing it?

I used to do it but forced myself to stop, it made everything more confusing and worse.

I hope you feel better soon.

[Mommacb in reply to Hidden]

jimtom Thanks! I do feel better. I did stop looking up things for about a month or so. Just hope I can for good. I will.

[Hidden in reply to Mommacb]

I switched the computer/ mobile etc off as soon as I thought of looking things up, went and made myself busy instead, soon got out of the habit of it.

[Andrea1915]

I know exactly how you feel! The anxiety is so bad you can't help but want to isolate yourself away from anything I do the same thing I have been in bed for 2 days now thinking I have pancreatic cancer and googling all this stuff and it's such a vicious cycle that absolute makes things worse! I suffer with that annoying breathing problem as well I have had that for 7 years! Still remember the day it started.. anxiety takes so much from our lives everyday I can't even count or begin to explain the amount of time I have wasted being in a complete state of worry and unable to function and what's crazy is one day I can be fine and the next my whole life changes because the anxiety decides to take over my mind I have no idea where this even comes from! Just know that you are not alone in this battle!

[Mommacb in reply to Andrea1915]

Thanks Andrea1915, it's always nice to hear that you are not alone even when you feel like you are.

[Andrea1915 in reply to Mommacb]

I lay in my room and cry because I feel bad that I can't get myself out of my head and go enjoy my kids this is such a debilitating illness of the mind it's unreal what life is like for people like us🙁

[Mommacb]

I know how u feel. Even on good days im in my room worried about whats gonna happen next. Im hoping to get in therapy soon cause I keep hearing how it really helps. But these days its even hard to leave the house. Cant wait for better days!