Hey guys so this post is a first for me. I'm pretty sure I have bad anxiety but it is impossible for me to believe that I do not have a health problem. This all has been building up for years, I've been worrying about my health every day. I almost never get sick, not even a cold but still I feel like my time on earth is limited! I have keratosis pilaris, a harmless skin condition that leaves small acne like bumps on my skin, primarily on my upper arms, shoulders, waist and thighs. I've had it for as long as I can remember but over the past few years i feel there is something more to it. I constantly fear that I have some sort of disease or virus. My worry got so bad that I took an HIV test that came back negative, the worry went away for awhile but it soon came back. I am now suffering phyical symptoms like, dry mouth, irregular appetite, irregular bowel movements, cold sweaty hands, trembling, pounding heart, and the feeling of a lump in my throat. I know all of these symptoms can be related to anxiety but it only makes my anxiety worse as the symptoms make me worry even more that I have a health issue. I have trouble falling asleep at night as I lay in bed and worry for hours. I have been taking sleeping pills lately but they make me drowsy the next day which only worsens my anxiety. A few days ago I had a breakdown over the phone with my wife where I just cried and told her all of my feelings. It felt good to cry and let it all out but it was only temporary relief.
I guess I just need to vent these issues I'm feeling. When I get home in about a week I am going to have my doctor perform every test in the book on me, I feel that that is the only way to leave this feeling behind even if it is bad news.
Anyone have any suggestion on how not to worry, how do I forget the worry, the fear, please help!