Hand on my shoulder..

[shadow45]

Hello my friends I have been spending time looking into CBT. As well as other videos on the way anxiety affects how we think. I seems in one of the studies that we who suffer from low self esteem or even self loathing have some interesting symptoms in our sleep patterns . The past few mornings I have been experiencing some subconscious memories related to being alone now The first time it was a dream of my cat returning the second my Mom was helping me put my dishes away This morning I actually felt someones hand on my shoulder waking me up.... All these things happen right at the end of my sleep cycle as they do. Its all just a reminder that I am by myself... Now I understand that these things are part of a healing process that will take time.... As I fill my life with new experiences and people these feelings of being alone will pass or will at least be under control so they wont spoil my day..... But I wanted to say in relation to what others have posted.... These feelings are so real as if they actually are occurring which can be very scary in our anxiety driven days.... I mean the hand on the shoulder this morning was very real. But I could handle it as my understanding of why it happened has increased. Bless you all steve

[Hidden]

Evening Steve,

oh that all sounds interesting.

When I have these sorts of memory dreams I have woken up with a sweat and panic on, which is not nice. it is good to understand why these things happening thank you for sharing.

You sound a lot better in yourself.

gardener x

[shadow45 in reply to Hidden]

Well I hope I don't fall back into the pit. That's really the goal now... Last weekend was a real test of my sanity... So being a week removed from that hell has been very positive ...I mean I can't imagine anything worse than what happened.... So my survival instinct has been important in seeing I have to keep myself safe from my anxiety ruling my life... To allow my mind to ruin my life is unacceptable.... now I have the proper Meds to deal with my anxiety... So Now I have to be vigilant with my daily life and keep in mind the need to be positive as much as possible..

[Hidden]

Hi Steve,

I am so glad you have got through that horrible anxiety you experience. Good on you for reading up on your problems. It sounds a very interesting article. I wake up sweating and frightened, when I wake early and then go back to sleep. I think ,we who suffer with anxiety, would agree that low-self esteem is a problem.

Good luck and hugs to you. xx