It's been a while for me since I've posted anything.

[KenKit55]

Our oldest daughter moved to Maine in 2021. Her husband is from there and his family of course. They used to live in the 9th ward in New Orleans. My grandson will 3 in February. They moved up there for their son. I can't afford to be up there this year. I put us in debt with credit cards. I'm not that depressed like I thought I'd be. Could be the Prozac and Bupropion talking though. My life didn't turn out all that great. My husband and I have 3 grown children. Sarah 37, Royce 36 and Carole ann will be 33 this month. Next year will be 40 years since I had put my 1st baby boy up for adoption. I met him in 2015, I think. A few days ago he messaged me. Said I could go to their house whenever I'd like . I was so touched. He's autistic and I just don't know how to handle this. I guess this was meant for a reason. I was only 17 back then. My parents never woke of him afterwards. That tore me up, still to this day. 😪 I was mugged in 1999, I told our kids on the drive to my mom's house. She told me if I was her she wouldn't tell them.I felt way differently. Then I'll be 40 years next Nov. My sister in law told I let my life pass me by...I've not been to college. Now I'm not working, on SSDI. I used to work in grocery, retail and fast food. I'm a mess mentally a majority of the time. Have no friends 😕 So what can I do to make me feel better??? 😕

[Marysblue]

I keep a gratitude list each day try to find even small things you're grateful for. I also try to keep.my mind in just this one day. Ive not had an easy life and I get depressed if I go there and think about it. Exercise helps and meds of course.

[KenKit55 in reply to Marysblue]

Ty. I've been trying to lose weight. I've been carrying this for a very long time. I should be around 170, I'm about 250 now. I used to weigh as much as 280. My husband used to get on my case about it. He doesn't anymore. I had Fibular Free Flap Jaw Reconstruction in Aug of 2020. Almost died 8 days later. I'm grateful to still be here. I had a DVT that traveled to my lungs. I had a heart attack and they found 2 saddle Pulmonary Embolism in my lungs. I passed out in front of 2 physical therapist while getting up to walk with a walker. I had to learn to walk, talk and eat all over again

[Marysblue in reply to KenKit55]

You are lucky to be here. I had some really bad years with my health. I quit drinking started eating mostly vegetables and exercising I just walked not even a mile the first few years and it changed me mentally and physically for the better.

[mizzou7016]

what can you do?? Anything you set your mind to...It's never too late to start new things....my mom graduated from college in her 50's....she only took 1 or 2 classes at a time because she was also trying to raise myself and my sister...I am 53 and already looking at programs to become an emt when i am "released" from prison.....there are tons of ways to get financial assistance.....just find something that takes your mind off things. I also create artwork

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