Since saturday morning I've been nerve wreckingly anxious

[Knowone]

I've tried floating along all weekend and Saturday night 0 sleep like at all... I have my son this weekend so I did not take my TrAZODone because i wanted to be awake and alert encase he needed something (as any little 6 year old boy does). I was doing fine and floating right along through the stress and anxiety, and when I contacted his mom to see when she was coming over to pick him up and she tells me she's STUCK in MEXICO and doesn't know when she'll be here for him.. I have tousling in the morning, and a follow up with my hand surgeon concerning my amputation, also have to see my primary care doctor to follow up on how Zoloft has been for the most part not working for me the first week. I'm not looking for attention but since my mom 'thumbs up's' me when I express my feelings I can atleast Vent out here in a blog sort of manner, I'm so exhausted and restless, and to top it all off now im so pissed off, this is the first time rage comes over me on these meds it's not something I want to experience, woosah---

[Hidden]

It's good to vent, go for it! As well as meds, are you Getting any psychotherapy?

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

No I start seeing a counselor this week, but it's for anxiety, not so much psychotherapy, I recently lost my finger tip down to the first knuckle and a week after my recovery I started getting horrendous anxiety and panic attacks.

[Hidden in reply to Knowone]

Counselling is a form of psychotherapy. So that's good. It will firstly allow you to vent all the dammed up feelings you have.

It sounds a bit like you might have PTSD.

Have you considered that?

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

Yes I have considered it, but I don't understand WHY. It doesn't really make me depressed, I can for the most part do everything I could before the accident aside from using my WASD keys for pc gaming, my middle finger is now in training..

[Tamka39 in reply to Knowone]

I have Trazodone but afraid to take it

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

my mind and body are just not co-operating with me at the moment, I'm hoping counseling helps unveil deeper reasoning behind the issues.

[Hidden in reply to Knowone]

Yes it could do that and that would help.

Trauma however is as much psychological as it physical and it follows from the traumatic event itself, not from it's consequences.

As regards Trazodone, (called Mirtazepine here), everyone's different, but I found it useless. For me SSRIs were better.

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

I'm on Zoloft (setraline HCL) in the mornings 50mg and the trazodone at night to help with sleeping, I can't take the latter because im nervous I might be out cold for too long and my son will need me. I started my journey with a primary care doctor who is helping me sort the medical side of things I see her again Tuesday, and going to let her know how the Zoloft isn't really helping me 'yet'. everytime i get in a car, or around a lot of people my brain begins to rush, and anxiety sets in, I no longer have episodes of panic because I understand nothing will happen if i just keep breathing and fight through it.

[Hidden in reply to Knowone]

Sorry not familiar with name of Zoloft. I don't think it's used here in UK. It is a SSRI, I looked it up. Takes a few weeks to kick in.

I still don't think Trazodone a good option for me. It made me sleep, but not good anxiety relief. When I was on SSRI I took it at night, helped me sleep without knocking me out.

Certainly try breathing techniques to help relax yourself at key moments. You could also try progressive muscular relaxation when trying to sleep.

It sounds generally like you're on the right path. Give it time

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

thanks for the re-assurance... you're not the only one that keeps telling me it takes time. Just the in-between bullcrap is hard to deal with, but Im gonna keep floating on. I haven't looked into muscle relaxation techniques my body is overly stiff and I cant relax it I keep tensing up no matter what I do to relax my body my shoulders are always raised and my neck and back are killlling me.

[Hidden in reply to Knowone]

PMR WILL work for you. It's not just a matter of trying to relax.

Try this

webmd.com/sleep-disorders/m...

you can also downlaod "scripts" that can talk you through it

try this

innerhealthstudio.com/relax...

Good luck

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

I'm going to try PMR but it's a lot going on for me to breath in for 10-15 seconds, hold a muscle then breath out, It gets my heart going, which raises my anxiety levels, right now it's hard to do that. Thanks for the recommendations im going to take it slow

[Hidden in reply to Knowone]

Try it, you need to focus your attention on your muscles, not your heart. I think you'll find the heart starts slowing down of it's own accord.

it.s tough, but it's a matter of focus. The audio scripts may help.

Give it a try - give it several tries, it takes practice and don't punish yourself if you get it wrong, be kind to yourself.

[Knowone in reply to Hidden]

I will try, thank you for the advice its much appreciated.

[Tamka39 in reply to Knowone]

Hey do the 50 mg Trazodone knock u out

[Knowone in reply to Tamka39]

they put me into a deep sleep. they knock me out within the hour, Im just afraid to take it because my son is with me, and I dont want to be heavily tranquilized incase he needs me for something, maybe I'm just over worrying but its his safety on my mind.

[Tamka39 in reply to Knowone]

I understand my psychiatrist give me 200 mg to take and am scared to take them because am sensitive to medication and if 50 mg knock u out I don’t want to be heavily tranquilized he want me to take Xanax 3x day 1mg and Prozac gave me bad side effects

[Knowone in reply to Tamka39]

Just try it and see what happens, you are fearing fear it'self. which is NOT productive for your healing process.