Help Mother's Day posted last week, I was desperate.. today is Mother's Day and I feel okay thanks to you guys.

[Montana136]

Hello my friends,, about a week ago. I found out my daughter was spending mother's Day with my best friend out of town. I was devastated I was crushed I was even thinking I might die. Literal suicidal thoughts. Well today is mother's Day and I'm here to tell you I've decided to spend breakfast time with my mother who I seem to value today more than ever. And then I will come home and even though I will be alone I will watch a good movie and I will eat ice cream because ice cream is my favorite dessert and I haven't had much in a while. I was devastated that my best friend and my daughter would overlook me on this day. I spoke my mind to them and expressed I was hurt. My best friend is not happy and feels like I attacked her. I spoke with gentle and loving feelings and I literally said that I was hurt and devastated and felt overlooked. Needless to say she is angry. She says this is not her problem and that I should be addressing it with my 20 year old daughter. But I know that she had something to do with the reservation because she paid for it. That I know. I chose not to respond to bff, as this was in text. I really don't feel like I owe any further explanation or even owe an apology...

Regardless, I spoke my truth I did speak it with kindness and standing up for myself is something I have trouble doing. But I did it.. I expressed myself and my friend can be mad if she wants to be, I feel a little irritated with her saying I attacked her but that was not my intention and I don't really feel bad for what I said about being overlooked hurt and very sad.

I think the important lesson for me here is that they hurt me, I spoke my mind thoughtfully and that's what's really important here. Standing up for myself when I have had trouble doing so all my life, felt good it felt really damn good. And I'm going to have the best day mother's Day I can.

I would say that I do need support today from this community as you guys understand the symptoms and effects of depression and anxiety and ptsd. I do not feel suicidal today which is a very positive step for me. Any encouragement advice sharing your story with me is always greatly appreciated. I will be here later today because after I spend my time with my mom I will come home here to be with you guys. Thanks again so much for your guys input sharing and giving me the ability to respond to you. Today I am grateful for my mom and this platform. And a good movie!. Take care of yourselves be well happy Mother's Day to those of you in the United States. And to those mothers who are not able to be with their children whether death or life separates them today I am here for you too. And I wish you the best possible day you can have!❤️❤️❤️ 🌈🌈🌻✌️

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Glad you’re trying to make the best of things. I’m sorry you feel hurt, it’s understandable.

[TangledUpIn]

Hi Montana136,I wish I would have seen this post on Mother's Day, but I'm just reading it now. How did your Mother's Day go 🤔

[Montana136 in reply to TangledUpIn]

Hello thank you for your interest. My Mother's Day ended up being a catastrophe. I felt okay not like dying but but in my effort to stand up for myself which is something I normally don't do I ended up pissing off my best friend and my daughter. Because they did something that hurt me. Stuck up for myself and they got mad. I'm a little irritated with them that they're trying to turn it around on me but the important factor is that I was courageous and I told the two people that really hurt me over Mother's Day the truth and I was not rude or mean or accusatory. So I felt pretty strong I'm leaving back and forth between sadness because it is sad when your daughter says something very disrespectful and hard to you especially on Mother's Day but I got over it. Thank you so much for asking it feels good to share and it feels good to know that other people care even if sometimes your closest members of your family and your closest friends simply just do not understand. Take care of yourself and be well. ✌️🌈❤️

[TangledUpIn in reply to Montana136]

My heart went out to you because I've experienced similar betrayals. It hurts and then when we courageously speak up and say it hurts, we're blasted with gas lighting phrases like you attacked me. Sigh. Just wanted you to know Montana136, that I understand. 😙

[Montana136]

Thank you very much. I will get through this. Thank you for responding and sharing with me. Take care of yourself