Not Enough

[madeve]

I can’t seem to find anything that interests me. My depression has been so bad for as long as I can remember. I no longer take care of myself like I used to in high school. Ever since high school I’ve really lost myself. All I do is eat, sleep, work, and shower. I barely take care of things around the house and it is affecting my boyfriend that I live with. I don’t know how to get back to the old me and it is eating me alive everyday.

[Marysblue]

Yes, depression will rob you of your motivation and interests. I look at people who don't have depression and see how much they get done and all their interests and it just amazes me. You do the best you can.

[Ryanlion]

Madeve, are you getting any help. Its clear the depression is your problem. How can you get motivated or find anything that interests you, you are held captive by your illness. Be kind & gentle with yourself and talk about a change in medication to your Dr or see a therapist. There is always a reason for depression, its a matter of getting to the bottom of it. Pat youself on the back, your still going to work your amazing. I couldnt do that. If you can start exercise even if you hate the thought of it. It is a serotonin booster, and body movement is a booster, dance,running swimming. To get motivated we have to do stuff when we are least motivated. I dont mean to be twee but you are at a stage with taking the right steps, you can be your old wonderful self again.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Each day I am a new person. The “old me” will never return. I have to face myself honestly about my assets and liabilities for today. I understand your feelings. I can barely get in the shower and my house is a mess. There are bills on the table I can’t pay. And counter space is at a premium.

But I am good enough today. And doing the best I can with what I have to work with. And my purpose is to help others. We have such a wealth of experience strength and hope to give each other here.

Reach out and offer some words of support to someone else. If I can check that off my list, it’s a good day.

[Montana136]

Hi Madeve, I think that if you are still working showering and eating you should pat yourself on the back really.. my depression has become so bad at times and I have a long history, so bad at times that I couldn't get out of bed I could not clean the toilet I could not take a shower I didn't brush my teeth I didn't clean the litter box I could go on. But I won't. Just keep swimming keep going. I agree you have a depression problem be very helpful too seek some kind of cognitive behavioral therapy. I don't know about your insurance. If you have it it would be a good place to start for behavioral Health services. there are resources online and you are actually doing one of them right now by being on this platform. I have a difficult time with finding passion interest Joy. And it definitely is hard for someone on the outside that you live with to watch you go through it. They may not understand it at all but they can still see it something's wrong. It is best to face this head on even if you have to force yourself into action, do all that you have to do to help yourself. A problem like depression needs to be managed. And some people even require medication at times. I like the idea of walking jogging biking whatever exercise you can do like someone else here already told you it boosts chemicals in your brain and helps. That's something you can do for yourself also read more on the internet about eating habits and depression. There is a book called feeling good it is a book I read a long time ago I suggest you investigate some reading material. I wish you well I wish you luck I wish you health. This platform is a very good place to be. It has helped me and I've only been a member of 1 month. Be well!