Hey guys! Firstly i hope you guys are having a great day so far and that you guys have ate well, stayed hydrated and have a peace at mind.
I just want to vent out to you guys about how i’ve been feeling lately about my whole breakup thing (I know it isn’t anything you’d consider serious since it’s a normal thing but it’s affected me a lot) anyways i’ve been feeling down and up at certain times. when i’m at work i don’t normally think about her unless she comes into my mind. after 7 years of dating (which we didn’t see each other much because of her parents and a lot of other complicated things) we had very memorable memories. which i will always carry in my heart, seems impossible to forget about her so i’ve decided to instead learn from it. i know it might take a long time before i can say im doing okay again but i have hope. she left me and blocked me on everything which is fine i cannot control her actions but it really does hurt a lot. it’s like 7 years meant nothing to her. sometimes i wonder if she still thinks about me the way i think about her. i did reach out to her a couple days ago telling her i missed her but that just resulted in me getting blocked. i get it she wants to move on and it’s kind of difficult for me since my feelings towards her are very strong. makes me sad knowing i won’t have what we once had. although i did learn a few things from her and i’d teach her some things, i feel like i lost myself in that relationship. i don’t know who i am anymore sometimes and most of the times i don’t have motivation or energy to try or do anything new. which totally sucks because i’m pretty sure that’s what she’s doing and she’s doing better than me (here i am thinking about her again). i just can’t stop this constant overthinking and it sucks. i’m alone half of the day so i have a lot of time to think about her and just drown in my own thoughts. i have tried meditating before and it’s helped but i cannot seem to find how to do it correctly.
Sorry for the long paragraph but i just felt like i needed to vent out. Take care of your loved ones and don’t take them for granted because they might not be here forever.
Love you guys enjoy your day.