stuck in a rut

[HerStoryUntold]

I feel like I’m stuck in a rut. Motivation is at an all time low, I barely have time to hang it with “friends” or have any type of socialization. I’m so stressed, so worried, always procrastinating on assignments that I know I should be doing. I have so much in my plate and so many things to juggle in life. I have a leadership role and a bunch of service related activities and business trips and life is so hectic. I barely have time for myself and that is why I’m growing to hate my life. I’ve been so inconsistent and undisciplined that I haven’t ran in weeks partly because I’m always busy and partly because I have an injured foot. Running had saved my life. Running is what makes me happy. Running is the only thing that gets me out of bed every morning. Running is my life. So what can I do if im not running. I feel like I want to die without running but I am busy and injured so it is impossible for me to run. No I’m not thinking about anything like suicide or anything close to that. I just can’t bear living a busy life and not have time to run for my well being. I am mad at me and at the world that I am letting my passion slip away through my fingertips and leave my goals into the dark abyss. Is it really worth it to pursue a prestigious title or role if i am letting myself go? Letting my dreams, my goals, and passions go? If I am making everyone else happy but me? If I am “successful” but feel like I am dying inside? At this point, I don’t care if I am an isolated lonely loser that does nothing but run, I just want to be happy and find peace.

[kenster1]

sorry to hear of your struggles.

[catsrock]

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. Is there any way you can drop some of your obligations? It's ok to say no and take things off your plate. I hope your foot heals soon and you can get back to running, but anything that will break a sweat may help. I swim and that really helps so maybe you can find somewhere to do a swim workout?