Anxious Life .. Memory lane

[Diamond_sheis]

This life is way too much and anxiety and depression can swallow you whole. I am really young and feel as though I am not really living. I found this note that I wrote 4 years ago and it breaks my heart that I am still this same way today. Have a great year guys and remember.. one day at a time ❤️ you are not alone.

 I wish .... I wish that others could feel me ...I wish that this anxiety LET ME GO...I wish this stress LET ME GO ...I wish my health wasn’t SOOO important to me that it makes me sick...I wish I could talk to someone similar and they could feel me 😩I hurt EVERYDAY. I feel crazy and I’m scared man I wanna throw the towel in bc I don’t feel strong enough but I love my people SO much I don’t wanna leave them behind suffering 🥺 I’d BEEN took myself out bc I just canttttt man . This shit has took over me man 😩 Call me crazy I don’t care , I’m hurting. I don’t wanna work , go to school, get out bed bc i be so out of it !!! Only someone suffering the same as me will understand this .I believe in better days but it’s been yearssss of suffering 365 days & repeat. I’m hanging in there by a thread man . If I ever do it & my siblings or mom find this .I love y’all SOOOOOO much ❤️❤️ it’s been a long fight but I wasn’t strong enough 😩🙏🏼 I’m ready to see god .

[EndUser13]

You're still here so that speaks to your resilience! Progress in life, in many arenas, is never a straight forward thing. When it comes to mental health, your journey may double back on itself or you'll feel as if you are going backwards sometimes. Its useful to remember that you have spent a certain amount of time fighting this, trying to become a healthier, better person. It's easy to feel alone in this world, but you're not- there are a LOT of people who use this forum that could relate to what you've said.

Keep hanging in there!

[Diamond_sheis in reply to EndUser13]

that means so much to me. thank you!

[RMHiker]

Man, I could really relate to what you wrote! I suffered for 7 months with terrible anxiety every morning, every single day, until I finally got a med that helped (gabapentin). Then when the anxiety started to go down, the depression took over. I'm still working on finding the right med for that but I'm doing much much better. I pray you get better soon 🙏

[Diamond_sheis in reply to RMHiker]

hope the best for you too my friend!

[Trainchaser]

I wish all of the time throughout my day. Try to live in the moment but hard when I wish thinking get in the wat