Why won’t this black cloud clear

[Adamj]

So I’m still struggling and suffering mentally and physically trying my best to stay positive and wake up everyday. Today I did go for a 30 minute drive and sat outside for 15 minutes. And walked up and down my yard twice. Driving was scary because I don’t feel as alert don’t know if it’s my body adjusting to the Paxil or what. But then got bad news that my mom has breast cancer again. Trying to keep myself calm and not take on her stress because so much through my life he stress was pushed on me and may be why I handle stress so badly. One minute at a time one minute at a time

[Starrlight]

You are doing great. I know you are struggling and I’m so sorry about your mom. It will be what it will be and you don’t have to be afraid of anything although we have that human condition of being afraid at times, we can take care and wipe the stress away at the end of the day.

[Adamj in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you! I had a realization today I looked myself in the mirror and was like this is so not you if you don’t do something to change you’re gonna be like this and continue to suffer

[Starrlight in reply to Adamj]

Nice job on the realization! That’s a big step forward for you.

[MoonDreaming]

Hi Adam

I agree with Starrlight you are doing great and sorry to hear about your mom. You just have to roll with the punches, sometimes it feels like it doesn't stop but honestly it does. Just take it one day at a time, give yourself you time which, sounds like you are. I used to go for drives late at night, just to try to get my mind off things and be distracted but then I stopped due to gas prices -.- now I go for walks or go to a park and walk then sit and meditate. Picking up a hobby helps, I tried photography but I'm quick to give up on things. Now I make sure to take walks and look after my pets.