(Posted this earlier on another MH forum. Thought it might help someone)
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A while back, I was struggling with some "emotional imbalances". I stumbled upon "CBT: Cognitive Behavioral Therapy". It was a breath of fresh air. Instead of looking at my thoughts like "ugh, what the hell's wrong with me?" i was like, "no biggie, just some bad vibes on the network". "Cognitive Distortions". "bad programming". Started identifying the thoughts, instantly, as basically "an error". "logic error". Freed me right on up. I would give you bunch of videos to watch but that would be pointless when everything you need to know is right in the attached image. All of these are different types of "error codes" in our thinking and emotional "processing" centers.
Just playing the "devil's advocate" for a moment, I can totally understand how someone I formerly worked with who only "observed" the "friendly, compassionate, considerate, non=judgmental, encourager" characteristic traits of my personality could potentially be, themselves, "traumatized" by seeing that those characteristic traits of my personality are just a small portion of who I honestly am, my HONEST TRUE Self. My Authentic Self. My Genuine Authentic Self is ALL OF THAT, I am honestly & genuinely that caring considerate "nice guy". I truly am. But, Here's the Kicker, I suppressed a WHOLE HELLUVA LOT, to PRESENT to yOU that CALM COOL EXTERIOR. Smh. Just not healthy. Not by any stretch of the imagination. We should all know this by now in the mental health and psychology worlds. So my Honest Self, My Authentic Self, is th e "nice guy" with a whole lot of "psychological upgrades" added, and some of those upgrades include "verbally lashing out" if necessary to prevent suppression of "toxic emotions" which build up and form "neurosis". All part of my own little "self care algorithm" I'm working on, just doing some "reprogramming", some "self care reprograming". Weeding out ALL "self sabotage" and "self defeating thoughts" of "shame" and "guilt" and "regret". Stuff we talk about ALL THE TIME in "RecoverY", right?
Just cracking up on the Inside. Speaking of "inside", if I REACT INTERNALLY (Inside) to something some dumbass said on the OUTSIDE, and I DON'T EXPRESS that "Internal Reaction" EXTERNALLY, then I'm doing NOTHING but COMMITTING "self-harm" by SUPPRESSING those EMOTIONS>a weell d o c u m e n t e d <psycho logical> <<FACT>>.
So just remember that the next time you tell someone "stop being so 'reactive'". Those emotions gotta go somewhere >> in the 'out' direction, otherwise...
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So think of the image below as a list of:
"Cognitive Distortions" "Error Codes" "Bad Logic" "Stainken Thainken"...
