Frustrated

[1947treble]

I am having a hard day. For the past few days I've been on an emotional high. I thought it was from working on myself and positive thoughts but now it's looking like a manic thing because its all crashing down on me today. The people in my life are either dismissing me or getting angry that I'm not my usual self. That makes me frustrated because when it's the other way around I do my best to be supportive and encouraging. Why can everyone have moods and emotions but me? I'm headed for an AA meeting so I'm about to get support and understanding which is like an oasis in the desert right now. These negative feelings will pass, they always do. My joy will return sooner or later so I'm doing my best to make healthy choices until then. Thanks for reading.

[Blueruth]

It could be a vulnerability hangover too. That is not manic. it is when you extend yourself emotionally and then feel a sense of "what did I just do!!???" kind of thing. You are not alone. Brene Brown talks about this all the time. Trying to improve your health can feel out of sorts if you have been damaging it for a long time. If you recently quit alcohol there could also be some residual adjustment. I used to drink more and then give it up for several months... forget what they say it took a good 3 months to really feel clean. This is the time to look at how you feel rather than assigning a medical diagnosis.

[1947treble in reply to Blueruth]

I've been diagnosed and in AA for a few years now. But the vulnerability makes a lot of sense. I'm doing better now, the meeting and some time with my sponsor helped a lot. My sponsor is coming over for dinner tonight and then another meeting so I'm looking forward to those. Your reply helped a lot, thank you. I'm not quite up to my usual par but posting and then talking did a lot of good. I appreciate you helping in that. Assuming it was mania was a little over dramatic, I'm glad you pointed that out.

[Blueruth in reply to 1947treble]

Fantastic! Enjoy your dinner. Brenè brown’s very first Ted talk is all about vulnerability including the back story. she followed her gut instead of the organizers about what to talk about. She really got vulnerable. Later the comments on the video, 😱 “she’s fat” “who is she to talk about this” blah blah blah. Talk about the hangover!!! Many more supportive comments but the bad ones still hurt. That video was the most watched and liked video for years.

[1947treble in reply to Blueruth]

I've read a couple of her books and found them very helpful.